I have lost 41 lbs. You say victory? Aw shucks, thanks. But, I don't really feel that way. Don't get me wrong. My community has really encouraged me, and I love to hear the, "wow, you've lost weight" comments. But, I have a long way to go. Not that long ago, Becky and I made a decision to get ourselves healthy, and hey, the added benefit of looking better isn't bad either. We have both lost a lot of weight, and we continue to work at it, more to go!
But, health isn't simply about weight loss. I want to be "in shape". Now that can mean a lot of things, but I am thoroughly convicted that I am not there. Brushing my teeth takes my breath away! Furthermore, I am convinced there are several obstacles that stand in my way. I need to do both aerobic and strength training. This is where the wrestling comes in.
I do what I don't want to do and I don't do what I do want to do. Sound familiar? I know that this is a human problem, but it really frustrates me. Right now, it is affecting my working out. Everyday I have been focused on trying to do it, but every day I have some excuse. I got a phone call, I am tired from the kids or work, my back hurts, I have higher priority stuff to do, I need a break.
I just can't seem to break the cycle. In the last 2 months, I have gone running (actually schlepping) once and I lifted weights 1.5 times. In 2 months! I have an accountability group, and apparently it isn't always about accountability, personal responsibility is where it is at.
I bought a jump rope. Another useless purchase that makes me feel like I am going to work out but will only increase my guilt? Hopefully not. This morning I was demonstrating to a curious Drew, and I got in a fight with the rope. Apparently I am not as coordinated as 5th grad girls on the playground. The rope, thin plastic of some sort, caught me right in the back, leaving a 2 foot thin welt. Ouch!
Do you think I will ever beat this? I think Nike was right. I need to just do it.