I Miss You Dad

My Dad, Robert Montgomery Brower, Feb 20, 1947 to Oct 19, 2006

Here we are at a Phillies/Cubs game.  We shared a passion for baseball.  He would’ve loved the dynasty the Phillies are becoming.

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It’s hard to believe it’s been four years since my Dad lost his 5-year battle with pancreatic cancer.  Four years later, the emotions are not as raw, but I still feel the loss of him in so many ways.  I work so hard to talk about him with the kids whenever the opportunity arises.  I want them to know him as much as possible even though he is not here with us. During the 5 years he was sick, I tried to make a point to visit NJ much more often.  We would spend the weekend flounder fishing out on his boat.IMG_2380

 

 

 

 

 

 

   Once Drew came along, I was even more determined to visit.  I love that he got to see me as a mom and spend some time with Drew as a baby.

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He was strong enough to visit FL a few weeks after Tessa was born, just weeks before he passed away.  He was very weak and didn’t do much more than lay on the couch or on the recliner, but he got to meet and hold his first (an only, to this point) granddaughter.  I thank the Lord all the time for that week and make sure Tessa knows her Pop-Pop in heaven got to meet her and hold her when she was a tiny baby.

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This picture is hard to include here because he looks so sick, but he was smiling and holding an awake Tessa, and I don’t want to forget the joy of that week with him.

 

 

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I almost forgot, he spent a lot of time in the hot tub at our house.  It was the time of day he looked forward to the most that week, as he commented how good he felt physically after being in the warm water.  It was a good physical therapy for his failing body.  Plus, Drew got to play with him there a little each day.

 

 

 

Braden was born a little less than 2 years after he died, but he shares his middle name (Montgomery) with my Dad and my grandfather (my Dad’s dad, who passed away a few months before Braden was born.)  I wish my Dad could see how my family is growing.

I think he’d be proud of this family I’ve been blessed  with.  I know he’d be so supportive of us serving in Haiti.  The Lord has been so faithful to our family (the whole Brower side) these last nine years.  I can smile easily because I know Dad is spending his eternity in heaven with his Savior.  What comfort and peace that brings.

I love you and miss you Daddy.

~Becky

Comments

TRUTH SHARER said…
I cried my way through this one but I'm glad you posted it - even the last picture. God was so good to allow your Dad to see Tessa after she was born. I'm glad that you keep his memory alive in their hearts.

Last week when I was driving to OC to a Bible study - I saw a boat out on the water all by itself with one man in it and tears welled up - as from that distance - it looked like your Dad.

Remembering 124 days of God's Amazing Healing and Grace!

Love MOM
Thank you for sharing this. GirlM was was born 3 months after my daddy died and that was one of the hardest parts. Knowing that he wouldn't meet my other 2 kids until heaven. I remember when your dad passed away. It doesn't seem like it has been that long.

Jenny